Tuesday, January 31, 2012
A long break and some big news!
My big news is that we're expecting baby #2, and he or she is due July 5! I'm already almost 18 weeks along and next week we look forward to finding out whether Hunter's getting a baby brother or sister. I am impatient and excited!
So many things to do before July. We have only 5 more months to prepare for the newest addition. Fortunately we have most of what we need already, just a few big things needed to accomodate 2 babies such as a double stroller. Hunter will be 21 months old when this baby arrives.
Life with my little boy has been absolutely amazing and he surprises me every day with learning something new, to do or to say, to put things together and take things apart, he's so smart. I think he's going to be a great big brother, he's so loving with us and the kitties and I hope he adjusts well to a new baby and sharing our attention.
Of course since finding out I was pregnant again in October, I immediately had to start injecting myself in the tummy with blood thinners like I did last time. I counted the months and realized I stopped taking the needles with him in December 2010, and started taking them again October 2011 so I only had a 10 month break, poor tummy! I don't mind it though and once again pregnancy has proved to do great things for me, reversing my high blood counts and preventing me from needing to get blood taken out for the last 4+ months! I am not sure yet if we will be having any more babies though, 2 was always my *number* and I kind of feel like I would be happy to stop at 2. Jason has always wanted 3 though. Someday we'll figure out what 'our' number is, if we feel complete after this baby is born or if we'll have another in a couple more years. If we do have a third, we'll space it out a little more than our first 2 are. 21 months is ideal for me since I wanted them less than 2 years apart, but I don't think I could do 3 under 3. Plus it would require us to upgrade our vehicle and really make changes in our house setup. There's a lot of thought that would go into that decision and I'm not ready to really consider all of it just yet.
Hopefully now that life has slowed down quite a bit I'll be able to update on our lives a little more often :)
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Hunter's UnBirthday - 6 Months Old!
I am starting to get into everything
I am eating big boy food...
I don't like squash!I like baby cereal, carrots, bananas, yogurt, peaches, and apples. I LOVE pears and mixed fruit!I sometimes get a cookie to chew on. YUM!
I can sit up on my own and playI can even stand up with help from Mommy!
So much has happened and Hunter just keeps on growing and getting bigger and doing more things! As of today he's 17 1/2 lbs and 26" long. We're still doing great with breastfeeding and today I have earned my silver boobs!! No sign that we will have to stop anytime soon, and I really hope to make it til he's a year old. My blood counts have been good lately and I really hope they stay that way.
Hunter is sleeping really well in his crib now! He still gets up 2 times at night to eat but goes back in the cage after. He gets gassy and fussy around 7am so I'll bring him to bed with me when that happens and we're getting up around 9am now. He still naps around 30 minutes 3x a day but I'm hoping he'll nap longer someday. And our bedtime is down to around 11pm instead of 1am so that's an improvement!
He loves to eat, and had a great start being on cereal for about a month before we tried some veggies. A couple days into our 2nd veggie (carrots), he went on a bit of a solids strike and would throw a fit and cry whenever he saw the bowl & spoon coming at him. I think we're past that now and he's really loving his pears (ate the whole jar in 3 feeds) and mixed fruits (including pears, he's 1/2 done the jar after just one feeding). I can't wait to give him sweet potatoes on the weekend. And I'm going to be making him some baby food this weekend too, sweet potatoes, mango, broccoli, and bananas to start. I can't wait.
Well there's so much to tell but not so much time to tell it in. Supper time for me, and then I'm going to get Hunter's mixed fruit ready for his supper, see if he finishes off the jar!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Snow Day!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
The Elusive Giggles
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Baby Boy is 3 months old!
Not quite laughing yet, but he lets us know when he thinks something's funny. Hasn't rolled over yet, either way, but he really tries! You ever seen Homer Simpson lying on the floor running in circles, yelling Woop Woop Woop Woop? Well, Hunter does that, except the yelling Woop part, he's mostly grunting and sometimes fussing because he can't QUITE roll over but he knows he wants to! He also tends to fart A LOT while trying to roll over!!
And the verdict is...
We actually got in pretty fast! Which is great, so as not to make a happy baby a fussy one! Everyone in the cancercare building thought Hunter was the cutest thing. One woman, who came all the way from Nunavut which took a 3 1/2 hour flight and a 1 1/2 hour drive (And I thought I had to travel a long way, lol) thought he was so adorable she got him a little quilt from the giftshop with kitties on it. She also claimed to share my same birthday which was more than a little creepy.
Anyways, got bloodwork done, went to see the Dr, actually got in right away, and sat and waited. He came in right away. Sigh...
Apparantly he doesn't agree that I can be off thinners. So now I'm back on the warfarin (damn rat poison) which is actually OK when I'm breastfeeding. With a very, very strong possibility of having to start taking Hydrea again (absolutely NOT OK while breastfeeding). Damnit! I hate that stuff! He actually said he wanted me to start one or the other that same day. I told him if I had to make a choice it would be the warfarin because I want to feed my little boy as long as I can. So that night what do you know. Back on the rat poison. The Dr. said the usual cutoff when he starts someone on Hydrea is when their platelet count is 600. Mine that day was 599. So it's not going to be long before I have to start taking those awful pink & blue pills again. Back to losing my hair and constantly getting sick - Yay!
I would give anything to be allowed to go till Hunter is 6 months old before I have to start those. Give me time to save up more milk for him, and get out of these cold winter months where I would constantly be sick and exhausted. Right now I've got something like 750oz of milk stored in the freezer, which is awesome, but still only enough to last about a month! I figure if I am freezing 12oz/day right now and can do that for 3 more months, I'd add a little over 1000oz to what I have now and he would have enough to last about 2 1/2 months before I had to totally do formula. Hmmm... how does that compare to what I wanted in the first place, to breastfeed til he's 1? Looks like that's not going to happen. At this point I'll be very lucky if he still gets boob by his next Dr. appointment when he's 6 months old, and won't make it to 9 months off what I can freeze. That sucks!
It seriously depresses me. I mean, I got off the awful pill Sept of 2008 and I knew my counts were slowly but surely rising. Then while pregnant, just being pregnant kept them in a normal zone which was such a blessing. Now that he's out, it seems like my counts are in overdrive and I'm already waaaaay over where I should be. I mean, 599! When I went off the stuff in Sept 08 it took 4 months to even reach 500! Now it's been 3 months and I'm at the point of needing to take pills that make me feel like poo to fix things. Damn chemo drugs. Why!!! It is so maddening and frustrating. Things are going so well, and this has to mess things up. I could live with the hair loss and getting sick if only it didn't mean I had to stop feeding my baby too. I don't feel like a failure. But I feel like my fricking bone marrow is a failure.
Oh and I forgot to mention that this new Dr. is good, I liked him, he speaks using the bigger medical terms but I know enough about my own condition that I know what he's talking about. J on the other hand didn't quite follow with all that was said. He heard: 'the average lifespan for someone with this is about 20 years' and got scared. But I know that the average age of diagnosis of this is age 60, so to live 20 years after that is pretty darn great! I really have no worries concerning that. However if I have to be on harsh chemo drugs for who knows how long, that lead to me having a higher risk of developing leukemia, maybe I won't stay healthy as long as I hope to. Then he (Dr.) says that we still have the bone marrow transplant as an option down the road, but that is so dangerous and although it would likely cure me there's a chance it might not work or that my disease would come back... Arghhh! Well, I didn't find out anything I didn't already know, I suppose. I felt bad walking out of there because I knew J was a little freaked out by some of that stuff.
What can I do about all this? Well, for now, I can hold my baby boy close and tell him Mama will always be here, and not to be scared if I have to go through some hard things in order to get better. I can feed him the thing he loves best in all the world, for the time being. I can look forward to giving him a baby brother or sister because thank god this disease won't be passed to my children, and being pregnant appears to be really really good for me. I can take a million and one pictures. That's really about it.